I first saw the movie St. Elmo's Fire about 2 year ago; much later than when it first came out. I saw this movie and a light went off in my head...who really does want to grow-up? Why can't everything stay the same? Why do we have to develop into adults with responsibility and knowledge? I have to believe that everyone goes through this. Suddenly you wake up one day and say, "How did I get here, at this place in my life?". Those little wake-up calls get more painful and difficult the older you get. Wouldn't it be great to always have the same friends, people you can trust, people you love and who love you back. Wouldn't it be great to be surrounded with so much happiness you want to explode. To have no responsibility outside of getting yourself out of bed at some point during the day. No bills, no job you hate, nothing unpleasant that you and your friends can't deal with. Of course the sun would always shine in a beautiful Carolina-blue sky too.

Everyone sets goals for their life when they graduate high school; college, big-time job, big house, BMW, early retirement spent traveling...or something like that. Suddenly you wake up and you are in your 30's or 40's. Maybe some of the choices you made are different than you thought they would be, maybe you still haven't made big choices that you really need to make. The realization that time is ticking away quickly is a scary thought, especially when you have a job that allows you to see death with every shift. Contentment is so hard sometimes but life really is good, even if it isn't exactly what you had in mind. Boy is it hard to see that cloudless sky sometimes.